Gambar : Royal Crescent, salah satu tarikan pelancong di Bath. Merupakan bangunan yang berbentuk ‘arc’. Mengapa ia begitu menarik, penulis tidak pasti. Credits to Ajah untuk gambar ini. Gambar ini diambil semasa beliau bersiar-siar di Bath pada cuti Easter yang lalu.
So many hours spent today, made me come into realisation. How big this world is. How small I am. So many things to be done. So little I’ve done.
How things can change over a period of time. Good for you if the change is for a better good. How scary if the change is something that is worse than bad.
The way I see the world is so different when I’m with different people. The more people I’ve met, the more complicated the world is in my eyes. It’s like doing a jigsaw puzzle. At first, I was innocent and clueless. As I picked one by one of the pieces of the puzzle, matching each piece with another piece, I managed to see one part of the puzzle.
For a moment, I thought I’m going to complete the puzzle in no time.
As I go on, more and more of the pieces of the puzzle that I picked were for the different parts of the puzzle. Which made several different parts of the unfinished puzzle. All the parts are not yet connected to each other.There is a pile of the pieces of the puzzle that needed to be matched with the parts that I’ve solved.
Trust me, it’s not one easy job.
While I’m doing my VERY BEST in completing one part of the puzzle, the other parts of the unconnected puzzle were left untouched. Am I forgetting the other parts of the puzzle?
No, I’m not. It just happened to be the pieces of puzzle that caught my eyes first were the ones which are nearer and reachable to me. As I am becoming excited and anticipated to know where this particular part will connect with the other parts of the puzzle, I started to put my focus only on that particular part.
The situation makes it looks like I’ve neglected, ignored, abondoned, etcetra the other parts of the puzzle.
But please believe me that -I’m not.
I still care and I still want to complete the whole puzzle. Deep in my heart, I believe that all the different parts of the puzzle will be connected to each other one day. insyaAllah. Everything is related.
By one single piece of puzzle
Time and my own capacity limit me from doing what I should have done. There are times I feel the adrenaline rush. There are times I feel so weary and exhausted. There are also times where I become numb and I don’t feel a thing. There are times when I’m being careless and mistakes are unavoidable.
Whatever it is, I will keep moving forward.
Thank you for the ones who keep supporting and guiding me and sorry to the ones who might have been hurt by my immature and inexperience (or maybe selfish and irresponsible) actions as I go along in completing this jigsaw puzzle of the world around me.